Every week I watch this sweet little gal, who is to be my daughter, grow up in pictures. Her hair is growing longer (& getting curlier), I see new facial expressions, I see the beautiful light in her eyes every week. How grateful I am for these updates - but oh, how they make a mama's heart ache. I want nothing more than to go halfway across the world and scoop her up. To let her know that she is treasured, cherished and will be loved beyond what she can comprehend.
What I never knew, before this season of life, is just how draining waiting can be.
EVERY SINGLE DAY I have give the timing of this adoption over to God. Lay it at His feet. Honestly, I daily have to fight the urge to cling to this process in my own strength.
Even though the wait can be frustrating - I can see just how God is using it for good. My faith is being strengthen as I lean on Him, fervently dig in the Word and hold tight to His promises. I always grow when God takes me past point that I can not survive in my own strength. It has happened before, and I am again in that place. Where I am totally at the end of myself. I can only hold to Him. It is an awesome place to be. To watch Him work. To watch His faithfulness unfold - because then HE alone can get the glory due His name because it has nothing to do with me!
*I realize this is the way it should be daily, depending solely on God, whether in a hard situation or not. But bear with me people - I am SO not perfect. I am human and default to trying to do things in my own strength often, but God's not through with me yet!*
So this Tuesday's Tune is about waiting. Timely, right? I love this song because of the reminder to be active in the wait. Praising God for what He is doing, even when I can't see it yet.
While I'm Waiting
John Waller
Psalm 130
"Out of the depths I cry to you, O LORD;
O, Lord hear my voice.
Let your ears be attentive
to my cry for mercy.
If you, O Lord, kept a record of sins,
O Lord, who could stand?
But with you there is forgiveness;
therefore you are feared.
I wait for the LORD, my soul waits,
and in his word I put my hope.
My soul waits for the Lord
more than watchmen wait for the morning,
more than watchmen wait for the morning.
O Israel, (which I insert - O Cheryl,) put your hope in the Lord,
for with the LORD is unfailing love
and with him is full redemption.
He himself will redeem Israel
from all their sins."
Thank you to all of you that are praying for us and our sweet Baby H during this adoption process. Please continue to pray that a court date would come quickly, so we can go meet our girl.
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