I am an Isrealite

Ever feel like you keep experiencing the same thing over and over?

We are currently in the midst of another bump, hopefully a quicker moving one, but still a bump.

Remember the what happen's next post from a few weeks ago? The very first step in the process after referral typically takes two to four weeks. We are currently past 6 weeks and still haven't completed step #1. We are not able to submit to USCIS because we are waiting for our gal's paperwork to come as it needs to accompany our I-600 application. This paperwork is specific to our child (things like her birth certificate, life history, contract of adoption and other paperwork that is significant in her story). Although she was what they call "paper-ready" at referral, a few docs ended up needing to be adjusted due to circumstance to reflect something her region was requiring. So here we wait.

Have you noticed a recurring theme throughout our process?

Another no-timeline type wait.

Could happen tomorrow, but probably won't.

Since we've already experienced weeks that turn into months before - we have the experience of knowing that what we face isn't an adoption issue, it is a trust issue.

This print below has been hanging in my bedroom since early last Fall.........

It has been so encouraging to me.

This context of this verse is in the midst of the story of Moses and the Israelites fleeing from Egypt after years of slavery. Long story short, they were finally free however Pharaoh decides a few days(ish) later that he made a mistake and lost his free services and went back with his army to go fetch them back. The Egyptians have the Israelites right where they want them, as they are sandwiched between the Red Sea and the Egyptian army. Sounds like a perfect tactical situation for the attacking army to be in, as there is literally no place for the Isrealites to go.

They all start freaking out and basically saying things to Moses like, what did you do? Bring us out here to kills us? Were there not enough graves in Egypt? Moses answers them "Don't be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring you today. The Egyptians you see today you will never see again........the LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still."

A lot of you all know what happens next - Red Sea is parted, Isrealites are able to walk through on dry ground safe to the other side, Egyptians enter the same parted sea and God brings it crashing down on them. Problem solved. Amazing show of God's strength, power, glory!

Can you imagine?  Can you imagine how STRONG your faith would be after witnessing a miracle like that? Wow.

To me this runs quite parallel to the referral wait for us. Although no one was trying to actively kill us, it was quite the trial. We knew God must be up to something......and He was. When our referral finally came, the way He orchestrated the whole thing was absolutely mind-blowing. Her name. Her birthdate. How and when we got the referral. All of it.  
(even the fact that she could, most possibly, be one of the cutest babies on the planet)

It was a Red Sea parting kind of moment. Watching how God moved. The kind of moment that makes you think - "whew, that was hard! Glad we don't have to go through a trial like that again. Should be smooth sailing from here on out."

Oh, wait. Hang on. Back to our story in Exodus..........


All of this Red Sea amazing-ness happened in Exodus 14, and literally right after they sing their long song of praise in chapter 15 (it's in there - you can read it :), by the end of that chapter they are in another trial. What? Another trial already? Come on!

Three days. In the desert. No water.

Three days - can you imagine? 
Don't worry, they make it through. God provides despite their grumbling.....

Can I just say out loud (or in written format) I am an Isrealite.

I am just like they are. Shocked to be slogging through another trial not being able to see the other side. Trying desperately to avoid grumbling. I can't make things speed up. I just have to walk it.

I am learning like never before, that trust is a funny thing. That my focus can't be on what I'm going through or what lies ahead. My focus needs to be squarely on the rear-view mirror. Looking back at how God has faithfully, mercifully worked out all things for my good. How He has provided for my needs as they've arrived, and how He has provided the grace and strength I needed right when I needed it. It is only when I focus on what God has done when I can give it to him, knowing He's got this part figured out too. He's not left us. We haven't used up all that He can do. We simply have to just wait on Him and trust. So as I hang onto that Exodus 14:14 verse still - knowing that the Lord is still fighting for us, as we have already experienced - I am not perfect. My trust can falter my focus get off. I am so thankful for the Word when that happens. Should I give up? Should I feel guilty? Absolutely not. I cling to this.

Psalms 73:26

 My flesh and my heart may fail, 

but God is the strength of my heart 

and my portion forever. 

Please be praying this bump in the road to be resolved as quickly as possible - how we would love to be progressing and not stuck! Continue to pray for our girl's health and safety as she waits too.

Because it's a Tuesday - wink, wink......a new song fav!

All to Him

New Life Worship

For every mountain that is high He is higher
For every burden that is great He is greater
For every valley that is deep He is deeper still
More than we can know

Our promise is Jesus
Our answer is Jesus
All to Him
All to Him we owe everything
Our savior is Jesus
Our future is Jesus
All to Him
All to Him we owe everything

For every fear that closes in He is closer
For every doubt that comes on strong He is stronger
For every battle that we face He has conquered all
More than we can know

We know the great God
We serve the great God
We owe the great God
Everything all to Him